1 post tagged “happy”

It's been a long time since I posted here.  Oh, I've been blogging...just really personal stuff at my personal place.  This place feels more like its for lighter posting, and I haven't had much 'lightness' to post about.

I've been taking my own inventory, working out some bugs in the software that is my conditioning, and seeing a counselor.  I've also been getting out more, venturing into the world and attempting to connect with other pagans in person.  This is all bearing fruit so far.

What I'm not doing is writing, and I hate to focus on that as a failure, but ever since I got settled in to a good, drama free relationship (early 2004), I've been having difficulty with the whole 'transforming pathos into poems' thing I used to do.  There's no real pathos.  And hence, there's no poetry either.

Or short fiction, or erotic fiction, or much of anything at all.

I get a little tired of hearing myself whine about it, though.  Whining instead of writing.  Worrying instead of writing.  I'm not patient with myself or gentle with myself on this score. 

I watched The Secret recently, and while I feel about it kind of like I felt about "What the Bleep Do We Know" (too easy, too geared toward the acquisition of money, too full of pseudo-science), I have been applying some of the principle ideas.  And they're working.  I'm definitely happier, now that I'm focusing more on what's right over what's wrong.  I'm going to apply it to the writing, too, and see what happens.  Maybe go through my archives and polish some things for submission.  We'll see...

Meanwhile, it's Saturday and I have no plans except to get some laundry done, clean the house a bit, knit and relax.  Tomorrow, I work, so I'd best enjoy not having to work while I can. :)