Along with 'coven seeking', I've been doing a lot of personal work. I call it 'altar work' because it generally takes place at my altar, which is in my bedroom, facing the North wall. I've been very much enjoying these breaks from mundania to indulge my spiritual senses.
I celebrated New Moon with a Blue Star coven (the one I referred to last entry). Prior to that, I got to hang out with Judy Harrow for an evening, and ask her all the questions I could think of asking a Craft elder. She was wonderful, and I came away feeling good about all I'd learned on my own. The circle for New Moon (which took place on Friday) was awfully good. I think its safe to say I've entered training. I have my first assignment and everything.
Strange to be starting over like this considering I've been working the Craft since my late teens, but I'm willing to take it in stride. I'm positive I'll learn something, even during this very basic training time.
Got a bunch of laundry done yesterday; cleaned the main floor, too. Then I put on a pork loin for dinner with baby carrots and new potatoes. Dark and I sat down and played various online massively multiplayer games (He played the LOTR game, I played WOW). The kids moved from thing to thing.
Dinner went fairly smoothly, all things considered, and then there was more gaming.
I know it sounds like all I do is game, but this was first weekend in a long time that I'd indulged in gaming. Knitting has been my number one activity, what with my having recently mastered socks. I just wasn't in a knitting mood this weekend. I started a new character, and played it to level 13.
(Blah blah /geek speak now)
I'm at work. Chances are good I'll be sent home by nine. Sundays are generally really dead, and I have an ongoing deal with the Sunday supervisor that if its really slow, I go home. I'm only here 'till noon anyway. If I get to go home, I will be having a soak in the tub with a coffee and a novel (Kushiel's Chosen). Later this afternoon, Dark and I are going to hang out with Salima (a co-worker who wants to learn how to knit). She's going to teach me how to sew, so I foresee regular meetings in our future.
I've been Coven seeking. I'm in touch with one in Toronto, and I'm planning on meeting with them a few times before I decide if I want to enter 'training' with them. There are no intiates in the coven at the moment. There was a hiving off, which left the HP with students only. The students are absolute beginners, so I'd be starting from the absolute basics. I'm not sure if that will frustrate me or not, and I won't know until I enter into it. Thankfully, there is a long period before Dedicant, so I'll have time to decide.
I'm attending my first group therapy session for sexual abuse survivors tomorrow evening. Its focus is self-esteem and boundaries. It'll be a nice refresher. Next Saturday, there's a women's circle in Kitchener, AND a possible Full Moon circle in Toronto, so I'm not sure which I'll be attending. March 6th, I might be meeting with the coven in TO and author, Judy Harrow. Kind of excited about that...
I like being busy. I like having things to plan for and look forward to.
And life goes on. :)
It's been a long time since I posted here. Oh, I've been blogging...just really personal stuff at my personal place. This place feels more like its for lighter posting, and I haven't had much 'lightness' to post about.
I've been taking my own inventory, working out some bugs in the software that is my conditioning, and seeing a counselor. I've also been getting out more, venturing into the world and attempting to connect with other pagans in person. This is all bearing fruit so far.
What I'm not doing is writing, and I hate to focus on that as a failure, but ever since I got settled in to a good, drama free relationship (early 2004), I've been having difficulty with the whole 'transforming pathos into poems' thing I used to do. There's no real pathos. And hence, there's no poetry either.
Or short fiction, or erotic fiction, or much of anything at all.
I get a little tired of hearing myself whine about it, though. Whining instead of writing. Worrying instead of writing. I'm not patient with myself or gentle with myself on this score.
I watched The Secret recently, and while I feel about it kind of like I felt about "What the Bleep Do We Know" (too easy, too geared toward the acquisition of money, too full of pseudo-science), I have been applying some of the principle ideas. And they're working. I'm definitely happier, now that I'm focusing more on what's right over what's wrong. I'm going to apply it to the writing, too, and see what happens. Maybe go through my archives and polish some things for submission. We'll see...
Meanwhile, it's Saturday and I have no plans except to get some laundry done, clean the house a bit, knit and relax. Tomorrow, I work, so I'd best enjoy not having to work while I can. :)
